I like this music.

my hols have been pretty cool. i thought i'd be majorly pigging out but i'm not. cancel the majorly. i do pig out. haha.

let see..
MONDAY 110308 i went out with quek, quek and sister quek's friend lynette who is apparently lynol's sister. we went shopping. i was actually leading the way. can u believe it? THE DIRECTION IDIOT GIVING DIRECTIONS. LOL. the thing is, i was the least direction idiotic amongst the 4 of us. we managed to get the far east anyway.

quek and i splurged on pretty dresstops. ouch. don't talk about the price. speaking of which. i'm getting girlier by the day. i'm actually wearing and buying dresses. can u believe it. sounds impossible but impossible's nothing. but of course, shorts and pants are always the preference.

i finally got to meet cho too. =) he really is a gentleman and a really nice guy who's kinda cute. no wonder.

the night part was more exciting. cos it was deb's bday. she kinda wanted a surprise party but was upset she didn't receive one, so we did a last min thing.

quek gathered her church friends and pple who lived close to the area. so we sorta just met up (some walked, some cycled, some cabbed, some got their parents to fetch them) at night. mo,marc,chew,me,jojo,david,jon cho,nicky,elizabeth,han solo(i don't know his real name) n quek. =) it was real fun. she was moved to tears. at first we kinda freaked out cos she was crying so bad. later, chew, mo n i decided to 'celebrate marc's belated bday'.

*note to self: dorea sucks at planning surprises.

while she was supposed to distract marc n keep him entertained, chew, mo n i ran to 7/11 to get a tub of ben n jerry's icecream. we bought a lolly n balloons to top it off. and guess what, marc came to find us. so chew n i had to act all suspicious like, as though we were stealing sth. while he n mo walked ahead of us, chew n i started pumping 'balloons tht looked like marc' (mainly cos they're lanky)and stringing them in some sort of a chain thing tht we eventually used to put around his neck. the ice cream melted into a chunk of slop by the time he actually saw it and the lolly landed with a splat on the newspaper when marc tried to remove it from the melting goo. (we stuck the lolly; stick-in, into the ice cream) so much for bday. lol. but he thanked us.

it was good for us to meet again. i've not met marc in ages.

the rest of the night was spent playing taboo. david and jojo are seriously hilarious. more pics taken at the bustop before leaving for home.

TUESDAY 120308
movie marathon with momma hen, wingyan, mamalee, chew n quek. LOL.
guess what we watched first.
anastasia! lol. what can i say. we're still girls at heart. =) chew's nuts over dimitri. has been, is still, will likely be. then we watched hairspray and we tried doing the dance. how'd they do the mash potato so nicely. anyway, i missed pepper so much. the last time we went to her house was when again? sec 2? it was nice to know everything's still the same. =)

chew n i then left for parkway. we went to get some stationary first. i'm so happy i finally bought black permanent markers! (it sounds insane. i know) i also slurged on some sketch markers. =) YAY. finally. if i could i wanna buy more colours cos i got pathetically few. but tht's a start. this is another reason to save up.

*note-to-self: save money to buy sketch markers and maybe paint brushes too!

we started eating and eating and eating. killiney -> crystal jade (i'm not tht rich. i ate the har chiong kai only. lol) -> moss burger. i love to eat. it makes me feel happy and warm. we talked plenty. tht's why chew's my bestfriend. just like how quek's my bestfriend too. i felt fuzzy.

WEDNESDAY 120308
today was really rainy. and results day. i did nothing much today. sit, watch tv and sleep! yup. sleep!! rainy days are the best time to sleep. don't u think. ei. i did ok for exams. i am CONSISTENT. woo. "consistently bad" - quote my mom. whatever. lol. i told her to stop comparing my grades with my Os, compare them with my sec sch report bk instead. u'd realise i actually improved. LOL.

i saw orion's belt today =) it made me feel warm and fuzzy inside.

i'm officially addicted to switchfoot's awakening. it's good music.


Here we are now with the falling sky and the rain,
We're awakening
Here we are now with the desperate youth in pain,
We're awakening
Maybe it's called ambition,
but you've been talking in your sleep
About a dream,
We're awakening

photography session

I am a very random person so i like to post randomly too. =) it's my hols! yay. i've been kinda bored to pieces.
it's hard to keep me entertained for long cos i have a short concentration span. luckily for me, i have adapted the art of self-entertainment. this would highly likely explain my friends. WACKED.
if you're reading this, i would like to thank you for reading my inconsistently long rambles. =) thank you for loaning a listening ear. or rather, your reading eyes.
as i've said before, if you wanna know more about what's been going on with my crazy classmates n i, pls approach http://so-zat.blogspot.com This blog consists of indepth day-to-day crazy-06 happenings. but it's not always accurate cos zat likes to talk nonsense too. my friends. we're all the same!

since blogger does not allow me to post up anymore pictures tht were supposed to be in this post cos it is so darn slow. i shall start off with our class gng off to tailor our clothes for next sem.

note: these are just really random pictures

This is a poster we saw for a new jap horror movie.

fine i was smoking u. u believed me didn't u.

the final result of $20 worth of money and screaming + noise +noise + more noise + pushing + nudging + giggling.

This is so secondary school. i've not gone into a neoprint machine for i think 2 years?

Da band and i tried out for stardust and whether we get in or not, it doesn't really matter cos we had fun jamming. This is wan, taufiq, mo and i, and razif's beanie!!!
I FORGOT TO RETURN IT TO HIM. SINCERELY!

This is the mo with his mayor. =) me and razif's beanie still.
the beanie makes me realise how useful a beanie can be for badhair days. tht's added to my shopping list.

INTERNATIONAL WOMENS DAY! TODAY! - YESTERDAY?

quek sisters and i had a photography session in guess where? =) i'll tell u later

I pasted a plaster on the tree cos i know the tree felt hurt when we had to leave. i'll miss u too tree! don't cry.

today was fun. we took all these at our wonderful east coast beach! =) we cycled there and back. wow. tht was alot of cycling. tht's it for now. i'll be back!€

I PROMISE

27, 28 and LEAPYEAR

27 MARCH 2008

MARKETING IS OVER!!! 06 went out to party! woo!
we had lunch at...
OMG. i forgot where. i think i'm getting senile.

nevermind. we did have lunch around parkway area after we saw tht katong settlers closed down. then papaya, ahjuma n i left. i left to 'meet ngohiang'
actually. what we did was... papaya went for tuition - like she said, ahjuma n i went to marina to buy *ehem* for *ehem*.

Meet my oreo boy. =) he looks like ng pupu!!! LOL. i wanted to kiss him. AHJUMA! SEE!!! YOU ARE NOT ALONE WITH YOUR TRIPPLE B.

*she's foul

Later, ahjuma left for her chingay thang when i met up with the rest of the class at clark quay for dinner!!!

the area's beautiful at night. we asked some random passerby to take this pic for us.

initially he walked past me cos i think he thought i was trying to sell him sth. he figured i wasn't trying to con his money so he took this pic for us.

it was quite funny cos he faced the camera towards himself and asked 'like this?'

u can see his finger in the pic. but the pic turned out pretty cool.

It was somebody's bday in a few hours.

happy bday ahrong. a note for a note. =)

if you're wondering who he is, he's the girly-looking guy in my blogskin.

you see him?

can't tell which is the guy??

the center one.

looks like a girl?

i think so too.

28 MARCH 2008

ahrong turned 18 overnight but he didn't seem a day older than 14.

you are warned for the pictures below. may contain some sort of obsenity.

This picture is what i call:
HongKong Dai Lou (mafia boss), emo kia (wannabe), and AHJUMA STOP TRYING TO ACT COOL.

we watched 881 which papaya herself didn't get. dumb. cos it was mostly in hokkien.

the only part she got was when they were chanting 88 yo ah yo ah yo. she was cheering for herself. dumber

ahjuma and i kept singing aloud hokkien guas to irritate papaya. she wanted to choke ahjuma cos ahjuma was screeching. LOL.

then i left for MJ'S dance concert in vth - victoria theatre hall.

the dance concert was really good. so proud of michelle, shaz and amanda! they danced beautifully. i loved the contemporary dance when they used the song hide and seek. told u it's a nice song. trademark from nyp had a guest performance as well!!

OMG. it was like woah.

this is our rockin superstar shaz.

more interesting things happened that night.

some girl apparently insulted our dear chincess. so fann, chew, em, my new friend maziah, and i formed an alliance to attempt to do sth to the girl.

after much deliberation and plotting.. (we thought of all sorts; poking her eyes, stuffing a toe up her nose, pretending to smell her while walking past and give a distored face that say 'PHEW... WHAT IN THE WORLD IS THAT SHITE SMELL')

we settled for doing minor things cos there were too many pple around to witness our crime. we resorted to having throw plant fertiser (u know those small brown balls that u see inside plant pots) at her hair. fann threw, maziah tried. chew n i had none. but i wanted to walk past her and sneeze in her hair or if possible, spit in it. but someone held be back before i could even do anything. bah.

i'm still disappointed i didn't at least leave some snot on her hair. oh well.

29 MARCH 2008 - LEAP YEAR

i was kinda bored and alone at home and i didn't wanna spend such a special day so sadly so i met up with my 2 bestfriends-idiots. =)

we went to the park at coldstream ave to spend the day.

chew, quek, quek and i.

if u think tht was a typo error, well it wasn't. sister quek came along. =)

MEET MY SECOND OREO BOY.

his name is timothy and he has a tiny turtle keychain he calls mrs poussac.

he gave me oreos to eat! =) i love him already.

the playground had some politics gng on. we turned it into some fairy tale with prince aladdin, princess jasmine and the big fat rajah. it was so nonsensical it was fun.

if quek FINALLY POSTED A POST ON HER BLOG, it would be about the story. LOL.

anyway, we went over to the fitness corner to do crazy things including, pretending to be bats!

pls ignore the fats and the flab. BAH. i'm not made of fully fats, i have muscles too. seeing things upside down. =)
this picture is hilarious. chew n i are having some sort of a tongue war while quek's trying to do pull ups.

later we tried piggybacking each other. some successful, some. erm. lets just say ended on the floor. it was super fun.

final shot before closure. i love this. pictures look so different with a great camera. but the memories remain the same.

This Warm Fuzzy Feeling

You'll get why i title this post as such by the time you finish reading this post. =)
this is a compilation of what i did for lunar new year.
it's a pictorial, but i'll narrate a little along the way. enjoy!

FIRST DAY

my sister took this when i was doing a crab dance. haha. that's what i wore!

i love my family. =) i love it when we bainian to my parents every year, early in the morning. we have to kneel, then we'll exchange 4-word-chinese-new-year-phrases as well as hugs and love. it's this time of the year that my parents tell me how much they love me. fuzzy.

this is my super tall cousin. we took this before playing blackjack. can u tell we're excited?!?! =)

i won a little little bit! =) WOW

SECOND DAY

peng looks like a mafia boss. or some rich taitai, wife of a mafia boss. LOL. i'm her lowly servent. =( look. my dress is so raggy-ish and holy i have to use scotchtape to tape it together.

UNGLAM!!

These clouds make me go wow.

THIRD DAY

EATING STEAMBOAT!!!! fann, mamalee, chew n i walked around bugis area, and finally settled with a nice steamboat dinner! JIAK! we chose tomyum and paigu soup. the tomyum burnt my tongue, but it was so darn shiok. i sound sadistic. lol

Chew and i found a leaf shaped like a heart on the floor! pretty right? love feat.

ok... prepare yourself for unglam and random shots. =)

us posing beside tiff & co stuff cos we can't afford them

burgling into raffles hotel! omg. look at the interior. i think the manager saw our heads bobbing up and down.

taking random and takglam pictures along the road for everyone to see. no shame. lol. i almost got knocked down by a car while crossing the road cos SMSing!

ohoh! here! the pictures u are about to see are evidence of our deviant acts. after taking these, we were shouted at by some random police guy. we ran like crazy. chew was seriously freaked, fann kept apologising. LOL

ending the night by taking pics at the bridge linking vch to fullerton. that place is just gorgeous at night. =) we saw couples shamelessly making out in public. so we pretended to act lesbian.

then i had to rush home cos of my 12 o' clock curfew. cinderella is me. we cabbed in the end. haha! and i reached home just in time! 12.00 on the dot! the carriage turned into a pumpkin then.

FORTH DAY

for more information of the sequence of events for the day, pls visit http://so-zat.blogspot.com

this is so commercialising zat's blog. zat! u there. u ought to pay me.

random pictures for the day. i actually wore dresses for 3 out of the 4 days! OMG

kok and papaya look so spas in this pic. omg. fartfaces. my class is full of them.

i love these crazy pple. =)

do u understand why i feel fuzzy? i know u do.

happy new year everyone! may u xin xiang shi cheng, and ruyi jix!

It's hard bottling everything up

ok. this is so contrasting to the festive season mood, and sorry i'm being a spoiler if u read this.

this is a warning. if u do not want to read upsetting thoughts, please stay away. stop reading. now. now now... I MEAN IT. NOW. this is your final warning. stop reading!!!

i don't know what's gotten into me. maybe cos i'm ovulating. i feel so a whole palette of emotions crashing down on me. it's as if i have split personality. my mood swings by faster than u can say boomerang.

hmm. i'm bothered by love stuff. odd right? i've not really been bothered by those sort of feelings for a long time. but recently, it seems the lock that bolted the doors of my heart have been broken. in otherwords, my heart has been broken into. i can't tell if it's for worse or for the better. but i know that now, it just makes me feel queasy and uneasy. plainly because i don't dare to accept this sort of feelings again.

i don't wanna get hurt again.

do u get it.

u don't.

none of u do.

dumbos.

i feel so dumb. i just dunno why i can't let go. i keep holding on to that little piece left. it's already gone. but i keep the broken charded glass pieces. i've been telling everyone, deceiving even myself that i've moved on, thrown the remaining bits out. but i've been living a lie. such a huge lie that it take more than throwing out the pieces of glass to clear the mess. you see. a piece got into my eye. i know u don't understand what i'm talking about. but it's better that way. let['s keep it that way too.

i like talking in riddles. and that my blog's kinda deserted so the less people know the better.

this is embarrassing. i'm pouring out my feelings onto a virtual diary. it's so contradictary it's satisfying.

i really wanna move on you know. i have to clear this up myself.

i'm scared to accept something new. anyway, i'm not even certain of it.

either way, i'm afraid. and i'm cowardly. i don't dare.

it's hard. i wanna grow stronger. i know i am. because i don't cry as easily. although i might cry inside, i don't cry physically.

u dun even know half of it. how long i've been hanging on the edge of the clift like this.

i am fearful.. i don't really know how i feel.

i don't know anything.

i'll leave it here

but for now, i feel like i'm still stuck in a cold dark room, but i see a glimpse of light.

yet i don't dare approach it,

because i don't want to be blinded by it.